yeah
theyre trynna con and confuse me
im not sure what im doing
im not sure if im losing
and im quickly fucking bruising
Why you gotta be so choosy?
How you thought that thatd move me?
My god, you're such a floozy
And I ask, to what end?
not a point to make amends,
shit done feels of spatial rend
watch the water flow, watch it pool beneath again
take off to the stars, i might even bring a friend
uh

heh
tell em im fucking faded
im gone like fucking lain
all that you do is lay in
no release, just pain
struggle to cope and it feels like
im just fucking fakin
starin at the moon again,
Quivering, cold and shaken
lost within a nightmare,
and im wonderin where the blade is
let my sorrow run along
the skin ive carved for many wrongs

huh

they dont even fucking get it
it's electric, it's dismissive
im screaming out the missive
But theyre deaf and i am pensive
prisoner in my mind, and im dying, im careening
septims comin tho because i know that he is dreaming
free me from this hole,
i think my fates in the extremes

shouldnt i feel clean?
how in the fuck i aint dreamin?
Why in the fuck aint i screamin?
obliterate my being, let me fade into the ceiling
dissipate like fury, but its way too fucking early

flourish in the pixels, but ejected prematurely
find im actin' churlish, how the fuck'd i get so surly?
nourished in the manger, but my hair's a bit too curly
serving down my time that i earned with all my cursing
12/12 is nearing, and it's stupidly unnerving
smudging my own aura so that i can feel purely
let my soul go, and ill find myself, surely



[Michael "Eyedea" Larsen]
It's a very, um, interesting thing, because initially I knew that when I kinda started embracing these other parts of my personality that it was gonna be greeted with like, alot... I, I knew it was gonna be very difficult. But I thought, that I was going to be able to like, handle it, emotionally. And, that's kind of where the... I was like, yeah, I'll be that guy, I'll be the guy who gets torn apart, that... just shows the world that, you know, it's okay to just be yourself, and be creative... And do whatever you wanna do, and be unapologetic about it.

What I've learned about myself is that, I don't think I'm emotionally stable enough to deal with that. It-It just became too much, and so now, I've kinda retreated into a little... world, I guess, when it comes to my art, and my music. Where I just kinda make what I want, and I put it out there, and yknow, of course, play, do shows and stuff like that;
But I'm not so concerned with the response that it gets, because I cant be. Because it's too devastating for me, when I get like, people that want to like... kill me; I've mean gotten death threats, you know? and it's like... It's too much for me to deal with, you know what I mean? Some other people can, good for them, but, I can't. So... I hide. (Laughs)